I surround myself with people,
And chatter away,
So I can drown in their voices,
And not hear my own thoughts.
I surround myself with good thoughts,
But all I get are dark thoughts that show me horrifying things,
Something in my head shows me a man burning,
And I can see vividly that that burning man is my partner.
I surround myself with good deeds,
But these visions show me something that I have done,
Something really bad – I was the one,
Who lit the matchstick.
I surround myself with kindness and love,
But he had neither of those.
I saw his messages; to that whore,
Unspeakable things they want to do to each other.
I surround myself with the present,
But how long has this wretched affair been on?
Is that why he started beating me?
Do we even have a future, the both of us?
I surround myself with good karma,
But who am I to decided other people’s fate,
Maybe he deserves what is coming to him,
I will be released from all his violence after I burn him.
I surround myself with calmness,
There is time before the tornado hits,
And creates havoc in our little world;
Of love, hate, jealousy, infidelity and treachery!